It's not that I don't love hanging out with my niece, Amber, but doing so comes with a heavy load. I am beyond blessed to be a part of her life, and even more so when she says, "Hold me Noolie." The love I have for this little girl is boundless, but when we part I am always saddened. Not because I'm not sure when I will see her again - No, it's because as soon as I am alone with my thoughts they turn to Lil Amber's namesake.
I'm only Aunt Nellie, because Auntie Am is no longer with us. And when I think of the joy and adoration Big Am would have had for this precious little girl, it breaks my heart. No one would have been filled with more wonder than Auntie Am. She was the biggest kid I ever met, and it's why she is still so beloved. Her excitement and passion for living would have been a beautiful sight to see as she shared it with Amanda's little girl. No one would have loved her more.
Whenever Lil Am giggles, or gazes at me with her twinkling almond eyes there is a clear picture in my mind as to how Big Am would have glowed in response. My niece is her mother's and father's child in every way - it is her impish sparkle though, that keeps her namesake very much alive in our hearts.
And it is that cherished life that I miss so dearly when I dote upon the precious little one.
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